Save this moment…

Do you ever have a moment that you wish you could save and keep forever?I had one today.  Life is so funny.  Sometimes just the right thing happens at just the right time.I haven’t been feeling “pretty” lately.  I don’t know what it is, think I’m just in a weird phase… I’m working on my body, my skin, my hair…trying to reverse any damage I’ve done in the past little while.  I don’t feel radiant and I’m certainly not my best physical self.Sometimes I think we radiate energies that others subconsciously pick up on.  At least that’s what I tell myself.  Someone can say something or do something that is so small, yet so impactful, without ever realizing how they’ve touched another person’s life, but somehow, it was meant to be.

Today I was standing at a crosswalk waiting to cross the street and go to the grocery store.  I had just hopped out of a shower, hair still wet and unstyled, with no absolutely no makeup on.  I had thrown  on a pair of jeans and a loose fitting tank top with some old flip flops and jetted out the door without even looking at myself.  Did I feel pretty?  Absolutely not.  In fact, I felt unnoticeable.  At the crosswalk I was thinking of everything but my physical appearance.  What did I need to buy?  How much money do I have?  How many lunches do I need to make?  What else do I have to do tonight…  In a daze, my eyes wandered until I noticed a man in his car staring right at me.  I quickly looked away and pretended to check something on my phone (because apparently that’s how I deal with uncomfortable situations).  When I looked up again, and he was still staring.  This time he looked at me with recognition, as if he knew me.  I guess he saw my puzzled reaction, so he started to smile.  I was still trying to figure out if I knew him when he gestured for me to smile back.  Without noticing, I found the corners of my mouth curling up and my cheeks bunching into a smile.  It was confirmed – I did not know this man.  He gave me a thumbs up and I could see he was laughing a little to himself.  I smiled wider.  Then he mouthed the words very slowly, “You. Are. Beautiful” with a huge grin on his face.  My eyes shifted downward with a little embarrassment, I was nowhere near what I thought looked beautiful. When I looked up again he was still smiling.  I mouthed the words back “Thank you”, blushing like a schoolgirl.  We maintained eye contact for another few seconds, when suddenly the light changed and he drove off.  I was left on the side walk, with a foolish smile on my face while my heart melted.

*save this moment*

That’s all I could think to myself.

*don’t forget this, ever*

I wish I could have captured that moment so I could watch it again and again.  It felt so innocent…so honest…so beautiful.  I have no idea who the man was, but it doesn’t matter.  At a time when I felt invisible, he made me feel like I was the only person standing on the earth.  He was a stranger, who looked into the eyes of another stranger, and touched her heart in a way that he’ll never know.

I wish I could thank him for giving me that moment.  I’m going to save it for as long as I can.

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